Letting Myself Rejoice In Good News

So….. We are having a baby!?!?!

While we were not surprised we were pregnant, there were a million emotions flooding me the moment we found out.

I am not the girl who ever wanted to be pregnant. My husband is not the guy who ever wanted a baby. Therefore, why would we ever try?

As the age old tales of couples who fall in love go though, you one day look at each other wondering if you will ever regret not having tried to have a baby together. That happened to us this past December.

JR & KR Baby Shoes

On top of it all, as we have been raising this spunky five year old, we see so many reasons he needs a sibling.

I want him to have a counterpart in this world and Jared and I both feel he needs to know this world is not all about him (so easy to slip into that when he is an only child).

Aiden & Baby Shoes

This summer, with a million things going on and circumstances changing in our family, we found out that we were adding another little Ribble to this small team we have created.

I was scared, nervous, excited, shocked, happy, and guarded all at the same time. I can’t begin to explain the weird feeling of being a full on mom in every way possible because I am raising a son, but at the same time having no knowledge or instincts about babies. I have no clue. However, that’s part of the journey and Jared and I get to go on it together.

I am choosing to see the unknown as a good place instead of a scary place. Most people would say that about raising a 5 year old Caribbean boy; instead I say that about having a biological baby. HA!

KR and Baby Pumpkin

As soon as we found out I was expecting, I immediately started preparing myself to lose the baby. Jared begged me to stop putting myself through such emotional distress, but my mind and heart were just torn. I couldn’t enjoy any of it. Some of these emotions had to do with the “first pregnancy” risks. Most of it had to do with something else all together.

You see, I have been on the journey of becoming/being a mom for four years now. In those four years, I have lost three children in the adoption process and only brought one home.

I know more about losing a child than I do about gaining one. 

My natural inclination was to prepare myself to lose this baby. My doctor has been amazing at putting my fears at ease and walking softly with us through this journey.

We found out just over a week ago that our baby was a boy and at that moment was when so many things came into perspective for me. I could finally let down a lot of guards and begin to enjoy him a little.

I knew immediately when I heard it was a boy that God had a great plan for this little one and that we were going to be so honored to be his cheerleaders on the sideline. I feel the same about Aiden every time I look at him.

Three Ribbles with Baby Shoes

So now, I am a legit BOYMOM. Through and through. I have a little baby inside that won’t stop moving and kicking and jumping (even for every ultrasound, he moves like crazy) and I have an almost six year old at home who has so much energy and spontaneity that it is difficult to keep up sometimes.

All that to say… apparently I am the mom of two very active boys.

KR, Aiden, & Baby

Begin praying for me now. : )

Thanks for rejoicing with us friends!

(oh and in case you are wondering : I am halfway through my pregnancy. Our little boy is due March 14th.)

Love-KR

(thank you to our amazing friend Kelsey Kirkegaard {www.wanderershearth.com} for capturing our gender reveal photos. I love watching you with Aiden and I CAN NOT WAIT to see you with your son Akers as soon as he is home from India!)

Life After The Black Hole

Today is October 10. I checked my blog today and the last date I posted was June 28. I mean…..black hole much?

For years we have had friends with school age children tell us that their summers get crazy when the children aren’t in school and Jared and I have never understood that. Can’t you put them in camp? Aren’t they visiting grandparents? Don’t you let them watch TV in the summer?

And then I became an instant mom to a 4-year-old who completed preschool this past May and all of a sudden my world halted. I had him scheduled every single week this summer with some sort of activity. So what happened to me??
I spent the whole summer managing his schedule only to realize that was all I had time to do – if I was going to also see my husband, clean my house, get some of my own work done here and there, and feed my family – The only thing I had legitimate time to do was manage my child’s summer schedule.

I just now (after he has been in kindergarten for two months) feel I am shaking off the black hole dust of summer. I honestly have no idea what happened, but I do know that as my priorities have needed to shift since becoming a mama, I was right on point to have been wrapped up in his little universe for his summer break.
We were both ready for school to start, but it was a good first full summer home with him.

Aiden at Disney (he went to Disney World this summer. Swoon!!)

Since getting my feet on the ground again, new things have been happening in the Ribble household. I can’t specify at the moment ALL the things, but I want to mention one of them.

Last year, I felt very strongly God asking me to become involved in the college ministry my church supports with a group of Belmont University students. I was able to write a bible study for the gals of the group and go through it with them. I was so excited for this time with them and greatly appreciated getting to know them.
As God would have it, the beginning of this school year brought about the current college minister moving on and the church approaching me about being the new College Minster for our church.

Because of the size of our church and the current involvement of the college students, this is a part-time position. I have a lot on my plate with my adoption work, writing, and wife/mom life, but it was very clear that I had already set my life up to be involved with these students and that God was carving a path for me back a year ago.

I accepted the position and my sweet husband jumped in with me. We have been going non-stop getting ourselves accustomed to this new ministry and adding new activities for them to be a part of/serve in. There’s a million times in my life being on staff at a church made sense (and was a reality at one point) but I never expected to be a collegiate minster.

I love it. These students are amazing. I don’t feel old enough to be their elder, but I am and I just have to deal with it and appreciate that they tell me I look like I’m still in my twenties and I am cool. Thanks kiddos. I will cherish those words. 🙂

I leave you with this, which is something I will write about again soon :

Bob Goff Quote
I have been taking the students on a journey this semester of looking at Jesus in different circumstances throughout the bible and dissecting his temperament and his compassion. I want to teach them to look for the character of Jesus and to emulate it to those they come in contact with. If they learn nothing else while under my leadership, I want them to know how to love others in a way so fitting of the King of Kings. It’s the least we can do.

My challenge to you my readers… If you haven’t jumped ship over my sabbatical…. Is this :

Pick up your bible. Find a story about Jesus (there are a lot of them by the way). Read about how he interacted with those he came in contact with. Why did he speak the way he did? Why did he love the way he did? Why did he stop his world for certain individuals?

The very first story I presented for the students to look at about Jesus was the story of the paralytic being lowered through the roof to him.
Bob Goff said this, “We are throwing people off of roofs we should be lowering them through. We’ll be remembered for our love, not our opinions.”

We need to love well. We need to bring people to Jesus at all costs. And we need to be the Jesus who will stop for them when they need us.

Can we be this Jesus to those around us?

Let’s try.

It’s good to be back friend. I love you all.

-KR