A title as catchy as that should have something profound beneath it.
I’m not sure I can be “profound,” but I can be real.
This summer has been much-anticipated and much dreaded in my house.
We wanted to enjoy this summer with our 6-year-old and also share sweet moments with our newborn babe.
We still will, but this summer will be difficult.
Our 6-year-old has major eye and ear surgery in June and I have my ACL & meniscus repair surgery in July.
Not exactly how we want to spend our first summer with our 3 month old.
However, as I have battled through the levels of grief with my ACL injury, I have come out (for the most part) on a pretty positive side. (Some days you can catch me down and out about my knee – I’m trying to stay positive-I really am.)
Last summer was my first summer as a mom and I wanted very badly to just “be” in all the moments I had with Aiden. I wanted to be present and there and whole for him.
This past month has had me hobbling on crutches, battling a bunch of different knee braces, therapy twice a week, not being able to carry my kiddos because I can’t trust my leg, trying to still make lunch and pack snacks and do normal activities with my kiddos but all while one leg down, etc. On top of all the Mom and Wife duties, I am exhausted from just getting myself from room to room.
So after I had a pity party about this summer and all my limitations that will take away from my children’s fun – I looked up from my poor self and realized – the same truth of last summer is still here.
They need me to BE.
They need me to BE THEIR MOM.
When I am struggling with what to wear to the pool because I still have Ryman love cells hanging on my hips and because I have a leg brace that is uncomfortable without leggings on…. My kiddos don’t care, they just need me to BE THERE. My boys do not look at me and see extra love cells or uncomfortable clothes or the flaws I feel right now – they both look at me with these lovey dovey eyes that I could only dream about. My kiddos don’t see me as the struggling cripple I feel like right now – they see me as God does – perfectly made for them.
So suck it up Krystal. Find a moo-moo and drape yourself up and go enjoy the freakin’ pool with your kids.
From one Mama to another : The #1 thing to do this summer is to BE.
Let’s BE AVAILABLE for those that need us this summer.
BE YOU. It’s the only you that will do.